Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Not making any promises...

...but I might update this more often.

Even though Tumblr is far superior for photo/video/audio/etc posts, Blogger is a lot more "blog friendly" in my opinion. I feel that when people make blog/journal posts on Tumblr it comes across as somewhat awkward, or it just gets overlooked in general. I know that on multiple occasions since I started using Tumblr more often, I found myself not posting journal type entries because it didn't feel as comfortable as Blogger did.

Today Energy posted the song "Be My Victimtine" for Valentine's Day over at

I put together this quick little video interview with Mike regarding the song. I filmed it using my iPhone 4:

I guess I'll give a brief, scattered review of 2010:
The only music that came out that I can think of off the top of my head that I actually liked was Danzig's "Deth Red Sabaoth". I didn't tour at ALL, which made my year a thousand times better than any of the other years Energy was a band. I got into photography, which I am still very interested in learning and getting better at. I didn't write much except for a song called "Dead In Dreamland" which we just recently recorded. I didn't hang out with too many people because I don't really have any friends anymore. I stopped using shampoo, conditioner, and soap. I also stopped straightening my hair. Energy recorded and released Walk Into The Fire and nobody cared. Energy recorded and released a 2 song digital Christmas E.P. of covers. We don't even play out locally anymore. I'm pretty sure this year everyone in the band came to the full realization that Energy will never be our main source of income, nor will it probably ever even become a source of income at all. I spent over a week in the hospital because of a bowel obstruction caused by scar tissue from a surgery I had like 6 or 7 years ago that was completely unpreventable and, according to the doctor, could very well happen again at any moment. I didn't work a single day in 2010, but I want to find a "job" as long as it doesn't make me want to kill myself. There were also a few changes made in my life that I'm not going to go into detail about here, but if you know me personally you probably know the things I'm talking about. I'm not just talking about one thing particular either.

I think that's pretty much it. A boring, uneventful year...but I spent it hanging out at home with Julia, so it was one of the best years in recent memory. Yes, even with all the negative shit I just mentioned in that paragraph it was still one of the best years in recent memory...

So far in 2011 I have been doing exactly what I did in 2010...just sitting here in front of this computer screen all day every day. So little ever happens in my life that I seriously wonder how I'll even be able to update this on a weekly or even monthly basis. I did get an iPhone 4 already this year, and it is probably the best piece of technology I've ever owned. I can't believe more people don't just marvel at incredible shit like this. I can video chat with Julia while she's at work...amazing. My main goal for this year is to figure out a way to bring in some money, but I honestly have no idea how I'm going to do that. I'd love to get a few paying photography jobs, but I know that I have so much more to learn and I feel stupid charging people, or even calling myself a "photographer". Either way, I need to make some money. I just hate myself more and more every second of my life that goes by because of how much of a loser I am.

I'll end this on probably the most depressing note I can:

I'm not kidding or exaggerating in any way at all when I say this but...the following is my actual outlook. I wish it wasn't, but it is: I used to have a lot of friends, and then I lost a lot of them...but then I realized that there is no such thing as a friend. There are just people in your life that you can personally gain from until the pros are outweighed by the cons and it's time to move on. You also have to accept that that's all they are using you for as well. I am slowly trying to make peace with this reality.